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Si je meurs, ce sera de joie (If I die, It'll be of Joy)

Si je meurs, ce sera de joie (If I die, It'll be of Joy)

ALEXIS TAILLANT | FRANCE | 2024 | 80 MIN | FRENCH EST

ALEXIS TAILLANT | FRANCE | 2024 | 80 MIN | FRENCH EST

DocumentaryCOMPETITIONFocus France

Presented by

Consulat général de France à Québec Cinemania

Synopsis

Outspoken Micheline (81) and sensitive artist Yves (68) have “insatiable” longings for sexual and relational intimacy. Francis (70) is a proudly “loudmouth(ed)” activist who wants to ensure that yearnings become reality. All, under the banner of Grey Pride, have no less an ambition than to change the world. Able to detect, as a minority, things that are unjust to all, queer seniors in France are revealing universal truths about the cult of youth and the medicalization of old age. These Grey Priders are combatting indifference, overhauling the nursing home model, and rethinking how spaces for the elderly accommodate libidos. Micheline, Yves, and Francis may have had their sex lives stifled by repression, loneliness, or AIDS, but they are far from ready to enter “The Zone” of societal relegation. They are prepared to take on embedded prejudices, as well as partners and friends with divergent views on death, in their revolutionary intentions. With stirring poeticism—seasons redolent of adaptation; trees symbolizing how bodies bend or break; desire represented by a glowing red sex toy—filmmaker Alexis Taillant shows us what it means to live “a quiet, wild life.”

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Filmmaker Bio

In 2009, Alexis Taillant directed his first documentary Virages, broadcasted on France Televisions. This film follows 6 road accident victims and tells the metamorphosis of their lives. In 2006, he created the company Wendigo Films, in which he develops creative documentaries and short films as a producer. If I Die, It’ll Be of Love is his third documentary and his first feature length. As a producer, Alexis is part of this year’s Eurodoc program with a Franco-Italian LGBTQ+ feature-length documentary project entitled Dollhouse by Andrea Grasselli.

Producer

Nadège Labé

Writer

Alexis Taillant

Cinematographer

Cédric Davelut

Cast

  • Micheline Boussaingault
  • Francis Carrier
  • Yves Vanhecke
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